Shall get STARTED !!!

7th june 2011

i hope i did not spoil my laptop...the key on the keyboard seem not sensitive enough !!!
thus, i was so frustrated so i pressed as hard as i could on the keys...> <
sorry...my pity laptop...

in short, i am not good in keeping well and taking good care of my belongings !!!

few more days, i will be having a study leave for 2 weeks...
a couple days will be occupied by camp...
lolx...yup...i am going camp again...
aiya...just take it as a great chance to train myself a bit...and a nice opportunity to gain CCA point !!!
wakakakaka...

sadly, i don't really feel like going...i wanna sleep...i wanna eat...
just wanna lie on my beloved bed in Malaysia...and sleep throughout day and nights !!!
my pillow...my bolster...my blanket...i miss them eh...

after the camp...i will be on my journey back to my hometown...
with my mom...yay...i am really so happy !!!
but...i have a lot of things to do...
revising 5 modules which cover 5 topics for each modules...
buying some accessories to bring to Spore...
buying some reference books...
buying some stationery...pencils...test pad...A4 paper...
AND A LOT !!!

this is my first semester of my first year...
lecturer told us that it is a good chance to get a higher GPA ...
as compared to the following semesters...it would be very difficult to score a high GPA...
That's why the common test is so important in the overall results...
T.T
i am so worried...
i shall get started to revise my work...
but the coming common test is not the main thing i should be worried about...

my main concern is that whether i can really concentrate in my study...
whether i can really cope with organic chemistry which will be a big challenge for me...
lecturer already warned us that it is not an easy module...
so i am totally speechless upon hearing his words...

i can always get help form my friends...
i can put my effort in...
i can concentrate...
and things gonna turn out well...
i hope so...
i don't want to be a lazy girl eh...
i got to turn over a new leaf...turn my rotten leaf over...> <


yaya...easier to say, hard to do , is it ???
so...please remember...ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS !!!

i don't want to disappoint my mom...
she has been asking me to study hard...for my own good...
i feel so sorry for her...it seems like she has to invest such a big sum of money on me...
and yet i turn out to be such a lousy daughter...
i can't behave in this way...
i feel really sorry...

what can i do ??
deep in heart...as a rational teenager...i know what should i do...but the problem is will i be able to do it ???

erk...haiz...depressed eh... T.T