bLuR ... BLUR...

what has happened to me??
i have spent the whole day creating a blog...my own blog...
But what is happening...??
i posted an article but it was not shown in my blog...
but it has been stated there that the article has been successfully posted...
am i dreaming or what...
could someone do me a favour ?? PINCH me as hard as you can !!
i was typing in the blog...but everything did not come smoothly...
i pressed on "ENTER" and it should jump to the next line...but....
i wanna ask what is actually going on...
indeed of jumping to next line...it went back to the previous line...
OR the words i typed appeared out of no where in the next few lines...
what is that ?? can someone tell me what is going on...
is it normal...
OMG...i m really very timid...freaking out because of small matter...
yup..i m like tat..i m this kind of people...i m really feel scared right now...alone...facing the computer...
trying to creates some sort of wonderful articles...XD ...i guess i failed to do that...
damn it...the lines appear and disappear....it's really sarcastic...buddy!!!
STOP IT !! i m out of control right now...
i'm glad i have got somewhere to release all my feelings...
hey...i do have a plan..get some jobs to do...
yup...i will be a promoter for Billion supermarket during Chinese New Year..i guess...mom said so...
then...i m looking forward the vacancy for waitress in Station One Cafe...
everyone is doing the right thing...so i have got to do my own thing...not wasting time...earn some pocket money....
still...am i lazing around in the house at this moment???
nope...i would not continue with that...i will soon get myself occupied....
erm...i gave away all my reference and workbooks to two juniors of mine...
actually i wanna ask them to pay me....i would give them a low price....but out of timid...
i rejected to ask them...and just look at them...bringing away all my books....
i don't know whether i'm doing the right thing...they didn't offer to pay me...
so..i guess...and i think...they are my friends...i m trying to help them...no one's fault...
haiz....but i planned to sell the books so that i can earn back at least a bit of money that i have used to buy books..my mom's money...
deep in the heart ...i really feel awkward...but it's okay...overall..they are my friends...but i do really need to get some money...i m not from a rich family...
i would say ...people like me just useless...blaming is like so usual in life...but it shouldn't be that...not the way to go through life...
i have got to stay stronger...stop BLUR..ing..ing...MY FUTURE awaits me...
i m the one who takes control of my own life!! ^ ^