heyyyy, miss all my friends, miss you guys damn much, why ? why? why?
gotta admit, when we separate into different paths, eventually, the bond once built so strong seems to shake now, the question is did i i do my best to maintain it?
a relationship is not only about giving effort to build it ( which i at least give myself a bit of pride, i did give my 110% effort) but maintaining , perhaps just not enough, but why they wouldn't find me, they don't miss me, i am not sure, i am so scared when i finally get to meet them, just awkwardness will really kill me, i can't afford to lose them, yea, i knew quite a lot of people back in secondary school, i know all the chinese from Sec 1 to Sec 5, even the malays , i always talk to them , juniors, cca friends, junior prefects, of course i can talk to them, but never that kind of deep bond, words exchanged between us : Hello, how r u? so far so good?
juniors, we seem to know each other, but never have deep talk before, but i feel good, to know so many people, where you won't feel lonely, where you got to say : Hi , from one place to another

and i miss my friends' hugs, we used to hug, and i won't want to break away , haha
nice moments, but one thing, i didn't know whether their views on me ? do i look like a childish senior, they never say that, they seem to give positive feedbacks on  my characters

until .. until, ya then, i lose myself