hello, my dear blog, so long i never come to visit you, hmm, due too quite a number of reasons, blogging need laptop, laptop need battery, battery need a plug in source, but i can't use too much electricity right? ya, so not well
talking about not well, dear blog, i am really not well, why my life is full of failures?
i can't figure out why?
but why i keep doing the wrong things?
执着于不应该的事
what's wrong with me, i have been doing not quite well, and i don't know what's wrong at all..
how? how? how?
God, please help me, i am tired of keep comforting myself, i never allow self pity, but i guess i need it, i need self pity, which i will never allow myself to do it
i am just trying to prove i can do my things well, and people will appreciate my effort, is that a difficult thing to get from others???
actually i think the biggest problem is that i never realise how blissful i am, i guess, stupid girl, can you just think about how your mom sacrificed all things for you, and you never complete a single thing that makes her proud, you are just too blissful i guess, stupid girl !!
why? why? why?
what can i do? o what should i do?
i don't like the feeling of keep on doing the wrong thing, keep on making the wrong decision, keep on being a coward, i try to be brave , but i just don have the guts ><
arghhhhh, why i live in such a pathetic way?
why i didn't do any beneficial and meaningful stuff, and have a meaningful life?
plans, future, self-improvement, i have too many complaints and feel so depressed, what can i do?
i can't express in words, i am just no good at all
simple as that